People always say that when you have given up in your mind, you have effectively given up. As you can see, I have an exam in a few hours time and I'm wasting time blogging.

A good description of the current state would be a stick figure standing motionlessly in front of a pit, half hoping some kind soul will lend it a hand and give it a sure push into the pit and make sure it stays there for good, and the other half hoping another kind soul will grab the other leg and swing it far away from the pit.

I assure you, I can take all that nonsense. Just give me that whole load after my papers. Some things don't even have the courtesy to wait for an appropriate time to happen.

Did I mention to you, I really don't have time. And after those spate of eventful events, I don't have energy. The good news is there's so much more to come.

Don't give me any form of comfort. Just don't give me any form of crocodile tears, hypocritical sympathy, insincere empathy or any verse from the bible that you found momentarily inspiring or conveniently stumbled upon ten seconds ago. No, certain things just don't work this way.

If you really want to help, get to your knees and pray. Get serious with what you're praying and don't just touch on the surface. If you want an account of events, sorry no amount of words can describe how bloody tough this period is. Maybe one day when you catch hold of me I'll say. I have tonnes of people I must report to anyway. I'm dead sure I'll have countless talking sessions after tiding through my two papers.

And yes God, can't You see I'm hanging on. I'm seriously hanging on for my dear life. You must help me.